“Bhāva Samādhi” [Devotional ecstasy]

1m X 1m - Acrylic on canvas
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I learned so many things while creating this painting. To surrender. To let go. While afraid. While confused. That’s okay. Everything is simply an experience. You are the one who’s witnessing. All I know is that I know nothing! If you’ve followed my art journey for a while, you know that this painting is quite a special one. It is the start of a whole new development in myself and my expression. 

This painting is more than a painting, it’s an experience. An experience I couldn’t express to you through photos or videos. I hope that if you see this artwork in real life, you immerse yourself in it. I always need to process my paintings after creating them, and this is obviously very different to most of my work from before this, so I really needed to take my time to process this one. My art expresses so much about me, or through me? Something like that. My Soul always talks to me through my art, and I’ve learned a lot about myself through this one, and I’ve learned a lot about being a creative.  I’m actually still learning. Art is alive, it’s an experience. I’ve learned that I’m actually just witnessing when I’m making art. My whole spirit rests in art. It felt like, finally coming home. 

*This artwork is currently being exhibited at the UNKnowN Art Gallery in Amsterdam until 1 December 2024.

“Ruled By The Creative”

[22:20, 16-03-24]

“It’s Okay For Me To Like Pink”

[21:56, 16-03-24]

“It cannot be put in a box because I am already the box”

[00:31, 17-03-24]

“I Was Just Watching” 

[19:37, 17-03-24]

“Emotions are the waves that you have to ride to get to the other side

Even if that means that you have to drown”

[14:41, 21-03-24]

“…. but I feel okay. I do know I’m not a lot of who I thought I was, I was just simply carrying it. Holding on to it even, because if everything would fall away all at once, what would I do? “I am” means something else to me now, but what it means I’m still settling into. My art knows. I feel at peace with not knowing. And I enjoy “being”. I’m okay with experiencing my ego’s fears, because at the same time, I also witness the Soul’s “knowing”. It’s okay to be afraid, and it’s okay to keep going simply because it feels right.”

[18:59, 21-03-24]